stumped
I have been stumped lately.
Sort of cause what I would really want to say I don't.
Like I got released from my calling last week and it feels great. Is that bad to say? People keep asking me if I am sad..... no. Not one bit. Should I be? Someone even said I should get a blessing to help me deal with the change. I thought, are you crazy?? Not that I didn't like my time serving in RS, but it was time for a change and I am more than happy to pass on the torch to people more capable, organized and energetic than myself. Whew.
Also, why do kids always prefer their dads? It sort of ticks me off. Not that my feelings are hurt, I think. But I get a little irked when Levi saves his unwanted pepperoni for his dad, and then when I eat one bite of MY last piece of pizza that I give to him- he cries and cries cause that pepperoni went to me and not daddy. Humpf. Of course I want our kids to love both parents, but maybe I want them to appreciate me a bit more cause I am the one that is with them all the time.
I am now laughing cause that is probably the problem. Maybe its my attitude sometimes that makes them not want to be grateful for me. Yikes.
I started work last week. That was odd and fun and interesting and mildly stressful at the same time. I got home and Josh had a relaxing bath as soon as I walked in the door. He wondered how I didn't need one of those everynight. At least someone appreciates what I do around here....
Lastly, Monet. For any love the boys don't have for me, she makes up for in volumes. She loves me LOTS. People always comment on what a happy baby I have and I have to laugh cause it is always when I am holding her. She is starting to really like her daddy, too, though. Her eyes follow him around the room and she will cry hysterically sometimes when he leaves the room. My challenge with Monet now is that she wants to be with me all night long. Her room is cold so I hate to ignore her when she wakes up in the night. I dont mind feeding her once at night.... but twice? thrice? After last night's opera performance (it lasted as long as an opera, believe me), I figure it is time to wean. How do you go about it? I want to cut back without cutting off. Any ideas?
